Sunday, 2 August 2015

IS school still a place of learning?

What an intense week this last one has been for me. When I look back I wonder how I made it. As a student teacher we want to do things properly and when we plan lessons we tend to PLAN the hell out of them. They can take up to four hours to compile, if you include an activity and well-thought out lesson plan material and ideas to keep today's children interested. I had five lessons, some of which I had to repeat to another class in the grade. Five lessons over five days meant planning into the wee hours of the morning most days. It was exhausting but I absolutely love teaching so it just seemed to be worth it in the end. I had to give one class a serious talk about their behaviour in my classes. Their register teacher had been so upset with them because of how badly they had been behaving in the last week, and they did the same in my class with their incessant talking and devil-may-care attitude towards their work. When they found out that their behaviour was causing me to do poorly in a lesson that is being assessed (yes, they don't know that us student teachers are actually there to be ASSESSED), they changed their attitude because although they were chatty, they seem to genuinely like me, and continued to behave in the rest of the class, for which I am grateful. I thanked them afterwards for understanding.

One thing that stood out to me this week was the fact that there are so many things going on in that school that the teachers are aware of but choose to turn a blind eye to because either they know that they are fighting a loosing battle or because to take action is simply too much effort. Once the rain had penetrated some of the prefabs that I work in, we were forced to move to the old section of the school that had been scheduled for demolition but still stood for some reason. These classrooms obscure the view of the back of the school and the abandoned tennis courts behind the school. As I was sitting in class one break time I saw something that ignited an anger within me - streams of children walking on a mission to the abandoned tennis court walls. I had one thought at what they were doing and I was right. I decided to go and investigate and to my horror, the smell of marijuana hung heavily in the air with cigarette smoke and who knows what else. I took one look at the mass of about 80 children hanging in masses hidden by the abandoned tennis court walls. They become high during breaks and then we have to deal with children who are absolutely unable to take anything in. The smell of marijuana stinks of failure and lost opportunities.

I spoke to my mentor teacher about this and she told me that they are aware of the problem but something is being done. The worst punishment a child can get would be detention which they seem to enjoy because all their friends are there too. My heart breaks for these children in masses throwing their lives away for a fleeting feeling. It makes no sense to me. The next day I saw that not only are these children smoking weed, they get SOLD weed by people who sneak in through the gates and sell these drugs to school children. Men in hoodies, who are obviously gangsters. One I saw walking with a scissors - not to cut out pictures from a magazine I can guarantee you. It just breaks my heart because there are young girls on the grounds, and impressionable young boys who are put at risk by these gangsters and strangers on a school premises that should be a safe haven for any child. This is totally unacceptable and I intend to write a letter to the head teacher to report what is going on.
My heart breaks for these children and I feel like I have my hands tied. Is school still a place of learning or just a place children come to smoke, socialize, get high and do the bare minimum? Am I looking at this the wrong way? What can be done? Where do we go from here?

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  1. Certainly a challenging time for you however try and see some light at the end of the tunnel. Rather have the students in school than roaming the streets. What is important about this entire experience is that you focus on your journey while you are there. Understandably you are disheartened by what you see and feel as if you are the only one noticing the misdemeanours but rest assured that is not so. Colleagues who have been there for a while are aware of how they need to handle the situation which could potentially get out of control if they/you interfere. Find positives in your day because you have the power, ability and confidence to make an impact on them even if you only reach a couple you have made a big difference. The students have shown you that they can change even if it is just for a short while (your lesson observation). You will be the stronger for this experience Nicole. Keep up you hard work and never stop caring, you will learn to care in a smarter way once you gain more experience. Best wishes for week 3. :)

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    1. Wow, Gavin. What inspiring and encouraying words!! I must say that the children who do want to be there make it all worth it in the end. They are the reason that I get up at 6am every morning (without pay lol!), but also those who have absolutely no respect for their elders because by continuing to treat them with respect I believe I can get through to them. This is a very trying time for me eso since this is not something I have ever been exposed to but I'll take it in my stride and grow from it! Thank you for your kind words of experience!

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  2. Indeed Nicole, it is Sad to see the Reality of their lived Experiences...

    Your Positive Nature does make a difference though. Change happens... One Child at a Child... There are those kids who still look to you, as their Example and Inspiration. Do not lose your Smile... Or your will to help them and make a difference!

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    1. AMEN Ariel, one child at a time... Thank you for your kind input!

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    2. AMEN Ariel, one child at a time... Thank you for your kind input!

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  3. This is an experience which we cannot teach you through book knowledge, this is live. These experiences, and many more to come over the years (I still learn on a daily basis) shapes and moulds us and through it, we gain wisdom. I can see that your value system is sound and it just demonstrates to me what I once said in class, namely that we do not just teach our subjects ... we also assist in unlocking their potential through who and what we are. I pray that you will not lose faith, but continue to educate (and not just teach) them. Arend Carl

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    1. Dear Professor, I try my best to be the good example many of them might lack in their own homes... Sometimes I feel like I losing hope because I try so hard to be kind and loving to a learner but they answer my kindness with blatant rudeness and not even looking me in the eye which is just so sad because it takes a lot out of you to keep being respectful even when the respect is not reciprocated. I hope to not lose faith!! Hope you are well, Prof Carl!

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    2. Dear Professor, I try my best to be the good example many of them might lack in their own homes... Sometimes I feel like I losing hope because I try so hard to be kind and loving to a learner but they answer my kindness with blatant rudeness and not even looking me in the eye which is just so sad because it takes a lot out of you to keep being respectful even when the respect is not reciprocated. I hope to not lose faith!! Hope you are well, Prof Carl!

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